With the end of the semester slowly approaching, I can’t help but think about how different of a place I am in right now compared to where I was this time last year. Well physically speaking, not much has changed. I’m sitting at my desk in my dorm, like last year, trying to figure out what the hell I’m doing for the next two weeks with my finals.
This post is going to be my ramblings of thoughts I’ve had over the past few months, and my reflections on the past year. A lot of growing up was done.
What’s different is that last year, I was finishing off the first semester of my freshmen year of college. Now, I’m finishing off the first semester of my sophomore year. That may not sound like much of a difference to you, but throw in a year full of maturing and learning more about yourself, and you have yourself a different person than last year.
This isn’t to say that I’m a full grown adult who has all of her shit together, because that is definitely not the case. I’d like to think, however, that in the past year I’ve come a few steps closer to having it together.
I would like to issue a public apology to everyone I’ve met prior to this moment. I want to tell you I’m sorry for my overly talkative self, attacking you with friendship, and an overbearing eagerness to be friends, which is slightly off-putting. I want to apologize for talking ever so loudly over the background noise (probably scaring you and making you wonder why I shout all the time), and for just being a lot to handle in general.
Not much has changed in regards to being overly talkative, loud, and a lot to handle. What has changed is that off-putting, overbearing eagerness. In the past year, I’ve realized that the people who want to be a part of my life will make an effort to do so. So I don’t need to attack people with efforts to be the best of friends if those same efforts and friendship won’t be returned. There’s no worse feeling than putting all your effort into a friendship or relationship and not getting anything in return.
I’ve also realized that I don’t need to be friends with every person I see or meet. As much as we all hate to admit it, myself included, there are going to be people out there who don’t like us, and that’s OK. To me, I’ve learned that it saves me the effort of wasting my energy on people who don’t care about my feelings, friendship, or well-being.
I know there’s still a month left of 2014, but I’ve already begun looking back at the year I’ve had. It had its share of ups and downs. The ups were the learning about myself, the downs were all the emotions that came along with it. I have to say, I’ve had a pretty damn good year. I got to travel to a bunch of places, went to a plethora of concerts, made some new friends, and got a lot closer to my family and friends. So, I want to say goodbye to 2014, and warmly welcome 2015.
I think the best part of my year was me finally taking steps towards becoming the person I’ve always wanted to become. You see, for a couple of years now I’ve wanted to start my own blog. Blogging has always had such an appeal to me. I’ve always enjoyed the aesthetic and content that blogs like World of Wanderlust (a travel blog), My London (a lifestyle blog), and Man Repeller (the ultimate blog) have posted. All three of the young women who run these blogs are doing something that I hope I can do some day. Not to mention, reading their blogs and similar ones are what inspired me to start my own (alongside my goal of becoming a writer one day). How they run their blogs and the content they post have allowed me to create goals for myself and my own blog. Traveling, exploring the ins-and-outs of London, and making a career out of blogging are such awesome concepts to me. Hopefully, one of these days I’ll be able to do one, if not all, of those three things.
This year, I took that risk. With some encouragement from my friends and family, and the drive to one day become a writer, I started this blog. It’s still only weeks old, but I hope that it’ll grow as I gain more experience, travel more, and learn more about myself and the world.
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