For the longest time, I thought that peace could be found in a good cup of coffee. My motto was, “It’s nothing a good cup of coffee can’t fix.” Fast forward a little bit and I realized that finding peace wasn’t that easy.Since around this time last year, I’ve been on a quest to find my inner peace. It sounds cliché, and it is. I didn’t start taking it seriously until August of last year. After August, I felt that in order to be at peace with the universe, I had to be at peace with myself first. I would try and be aware of unnecessary things getting on my nerves, and try to not acknowledge them as best I could. I would take deep breaths whenever I needed a minute to think, and I had given up coffee (GASP!) for about four full months.
Eventually, I started drinking coffee again, and forgot all about the little tactics I had employed earlier in order to achieve my inner peace.
Fast forward to this month, and I remembered my efforts from last year. I tried to employ them again, but couldn’t. New stresses have come about, and I have found myself overcoming different challenges. I’ve hit a stand still.
I gave my attempts at finding my inner peace some thought the other night, and came to an interesting conclusion. Firstly, finding inner peace is different for everyone, and how each person goes about achieving it is different for everyone.
I thought that I would find my inner peace by just suddenly feeling calm one day. Recently, I’ve decided otherwise. I think that my inner peace isn’t my being calm 24/7. It’s my constantly being aware of the little things that stress me out and doing my best to not let them get to me. I don’t have to completely wipe my brain clean of all of my little pet peeves. Instead, I can acknowledge them, but not spend days dwelling on them.
My inner peace isn’t “being in a calm state.” My inner peace is just like my life: being pulled in different directions all the time and somehow finding a way to make it work. I don’t think I will ever be one of those zen girls you see on Tumblr or on other blogs. I will always be a high-strung, overactive, all around ball of energy. I’ve officially come to terms with the fact that this is who I am, and THAT alone is my inner peace; acceptance.
So don’t be afraid if you haven’t found what you think is your inner peace yet. Inner peace, like people, comes in a variety of forms. Trust me, you’ll know once you’ve found it. So don’t worry about that now, just keep on keepin’ on.